Felt the past two days were quite sucky. Haven't really achieve anything. Just slacking all day long, playing tennis, and lan...feeling all weird now, thoughts running through my mind as I type my post..

Felt like my results don't mean anything. I mean, everybody congratulating me..everybody now getting 'jealous' of me(on purpose)..everybody's happy for me...but I feel like I've achived nothing. I don't feel the happiness that I did well for exams..like the whole year's wasted, but actually is not...don't know what will happen next year. Worried about the people I'll meet, bout' the teachers I'll have, and as usual, the problems I'll face. Feels like long pants are going to be a burden for me. Well, that's life.

Sometimes I wished I could live forever. And ever. Never get a glimpse of death. And its works. Sometimes I wished I could just live by the sea, admiring all of God's works, taking a time off a fast paced life. I could just see things change. See people change. Even wonder how it'll be like to see your great-grandson die. Well, we live in a beautiful world. Many things happen at once.(Maybe I'm typing this because I recently watched WTC).

I've been getting all these weird feelings lately. Don't know whether it's people, or just stuff happening. Havings fears of admitting your emotions. time of reflection. Haven't really cried in a long time. Manupilated by your desires. And fears. I know this post doesn't quite link together. That's how I feel right now.

Well tomorrow's school. Don't know what I can do there. Maybe I need to take a time off and just think. Think about the times I had. With family. With friends. With CCAs. With the growth and experience. With the changes. Emotionally and Spiritually.