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Friday, March 30, 2007
1:51 AM

REW WAS GREAT!

Whoo, super happy, got (so called) good feedback! Wheee....Gosh, really enjoyed playing man. Whee, but I don't wanna play for upper sec....scared. Lower sec's better. Mwhahaha. Now I wanna learn how to play blues, jazz...all those off-beat kinda style. Whee, guess I'll hafta take lessons...hmm maybe I'll have lessons when Damien has his sax lessons...hmmm oh well...

Classes after that were, usual. But yea, I went back to class only to find out then Alex Lee scolded our class, and we had to stay back for recess -.-. Whoo but Alex Lee was missing, so some of us left for recess...oh well...then yea, he scolded us again. Whoo haha. After that, usual.

After school, stayed back for no reason, waited for Matt's dad to come, but he was coming late, so Xavier and I left after a while.

Today was kinda usual. Just that we had phototaking..haha Andrew was super retarded. "Alright, now, the Lawrence Mak pose! Alright, now Christopher Low!" Haha. Then yay, after we took the photo thing then left for recess. Then Samuel Eio told us to go library after recess, then LHF got angry, cause we were all missing...but yea, only some of us needed to go. That included me. Hoho. Slacked outside the library till we missed AM and half of PD...got health check up. They checked my back. Then we waited at the library because Mr Ng said we must 'move around as a class, not in drips and draps'. Haha.

Then, immediately after school, waited at Admin room, then went out with Barney, Chia, KKP, Zach, DJ and Mitch to US to have lunch. Well, ate lunch at Swensens. Now I'm broke. -.-". Waaaa, broke. Haha, but KKP was retarded (as usual). Dunnoe lah, everything he says has a sick meaning behind it. Oh well. Then went back home with Zach and Chia. Damn stupid man, should have played truth or dare. The first one will sure kena the most...mwahahaha....nevermind. And what a coincidence man. The person Chia was looking at alighted as the same stop as him....hehehe...oh and and was super cool. I met Heng Hao at the mrt station! Haha. Well, he seems fine too. He's in poly now..whoo..doing Banking and Finance...haha. And yea, he told me that this year's china trip's gonna be the last one. Cause Siow lao shi gonna retire liao...oh well...Heng Hao says he should be going for it. Well, I'll try to go too, provided...argh nevermind. I'll just try to go. :).

Haha was great meeting him.

Now I'm back, gonna leave soon for cell.

And can't wait to jam once more.


Wednesday, March 28, 2007
6:58 AM

Past few days rocked man.

Played for Lower Sec REW! Whoo! Wouldn't say spectacular, but it was alright. Though we made some mistakes, mostly miscommunication(that can be corrrected easily)...so oh well. Was fun. And thank God for pulling us through.

Well still got another one coming up tomorrow.

Let's roll.

Anyway, this is what Gabriel and I've been talking about, and it started because of my msn's nickname.

Flower Boy is Gabriel, the other one's me.

Flower Boy. says:
roses are red
Flower Boy. says:
violets are blue
Flower Boy. says:
you stink and i rule
Flower Boy. says:
and did i mention, you reek of poo
Flower Boy. says:
LOL
Flower Boy. says:
just dont sit on your stool
Flower Boy. says:
cause you may sit on a bunch of wool
Flower Boy. says:
then you will have to bring it back to the zoo
Roses are red, Violets are blue, Poems Rhyme, This Doesn't says:
instead of having to woo
Flower Boy. says:
where the animals will say " BOO!!"
Roses are red, Violets are blue, Poems Rhyme, This Doesn't says:
on all the girls you drool
Flower Boy. says:
but the cows will say 'Moo!!'
Roses are red, Violets are blue, Poems Rhyme, This Doesn't says:
and play with some goo
Flower Boy. says:
says who?
Roses are red, Violets are blue, Poems Rhyme, This Doesn't says:
well neither me nor you
Flower Boy. says:
...
Flower Boy. says:
dosent rhythm lah..
Flower Boy. says:
who and you..
Roses are red, Violets are blue, Poems Rhyme, This Doesn't says:
errr...
Flower Boy. says:
rhyme.
Flower Boy. says:
doesnt rhyme
Flower Boy. says:
goo and who rhymes
Roses are red, Violets are blue, Poems Rhyme, This Doesn't says:
errrr...
Flower Boy. says:
...
Flower Boy. says:
...
Roses are red, Violets are blue, Poems Rhyme, This Doesn't says:
....
Roses are red, Violets are blue, Poems Rhyme, This Doesn't says:
i beat you
Flower Boy. says:
?
Roses are red, Violets are blue, Poems Rhyme, This Doesn't says:
..................................................................................................................................................................
...................................................................................................................................

Flower Boy. says:
lame lah
Flower Boy. says:
some sort of stupid poets we are
Roses are red, Violets are blue, Poems Rhyme, This Doesn't says:
lah and are rhymes
Roses are red, Violets are blue, Poems Rhyme, This Doesn't says:
mwahahahaha
Flower Boy. says:
...
Flower Boy. says:
lame
Flower Boy. says:
ok
Flower Boy. says:
lets start doing poems from lame
Flower Boy. says:
i'll start
Flower Boy. says:
you are so lame
Roses are red, Violets are blue, Poems Rhyme, This Doesn't says:
that when in a game
Flower Boy. says:
even your dog is more tame
Roses are red, Violets are blue, Poems Rhyme, This Doesn't says:
and so he came
Flower Boy. says:
and got you maimed
Roses are red, Violets are blue, Poems Rhyme, This Doesn't says:
By the aim
Flower Boy. says:
sure, you've got some fame
Flower Boy. says:
?
Flower Boy. says:
hello??
Roses are red, Violets are blue, Poems Rhyme, This Doesn't says:
and maybe some pain
Flower Boy. says:
but you have to take the full blame
Roses are red, Violets are blue, Poems Rhyme, This Doesn't says:
of this guy called wayne
Flower Boy. says:
and his favourtie game, max payne
Roses are red, Violets are blue, Poems Rhyme, This Doesn't says:
oh well, what a shame
Flower Boy. says:
that he was in flames
Roses are red, Violets are blue, Poems Rhyme, This Doesn't says:
suffering again
Flower Boy. says:
and agin
Flower Boy. says:
oops.
Flower Boy. says:
nd again
Flower Boy. says:
and again
Roses are red, Violets are blue, Poems Rhyme, This Doesn't says:
from a bain
Flower Boy. says:
that was caused by too many bargains
Roses are red, Violets are blue, Poems Rhyme, This Doesn't says:
that though he might gain
Flower Boy. says:
but thats really the same
Roses are red, Violets are blue, Poems Rhyme, This Doesn't says:
that through every king's reign
Flower Boy. says:
it will rain
Roses are red, Violets are blue, Poems Rhyme, This Doesn't says:
with sound of thunder from his cane
Flower Boy. says:
rested beside the bed where he lain
Roses are red, Violets are blue, Poems Rhyme, This Doesn't says:
where the lion's mane
Flower Boy. says:
from which he became so vain
Roses are red, Violets are blue, Poems Rhyme, This Doesn't says:
that the blood in his vein
Flower Boy. says:
had become too plain
Roses are red, Violets are blue, Poems Rhyme, This Doesn't says:
with bread and margarine
Flower Boy. says:
making you a little quaint
Roses are red, Violets are blue, Poems Rhyme, This Doesn't says:
and from this you will faint
Flower Boy. says:
which is why you became insane
Roses are red, Violets are blue, Poems Rhyme, This Doesn't says:
from this little lane
Flower Boy. says:
you got yourself a girlfriend called 'Jane'
Flower Boy. says:
lol
Flower Boy. says:
lets stop
Roses are red, Violets are blue, Poems Rhyme, This Doesn't says:
but she just ain't
Flower Boy. says:
i gtg sleep.
Flower Boy. says:
tired
Roses are red, Violets are blue, Poems Rhyme, This Doesn't says:
why this is getting fun
Roses are red, Violets are blue, Poems Rhyme, This Doesn't says:
haha
Flower Boy. says:
lol..
Roses are red, Violets are blue, Poems Rhyme, This Doesn't says:
haha
Roses are red, Violets are blue, Poems Rhyme, This Doesn't says:
ok fine
Flower Boy. says:
save this convo
Roses are red, Violets are blue, Poems Rhyme, This Doesn't says:
yea i'll post it up even


Monday, March 26, 2007
7:22 AM

Whoo, the band during the parade..That's Nicklaus with the mace..seems like he's gonna annoint somebody with it, like you know, raised arms, closed eyes...k nevermind.

Sexy marching, eh?

Wah lau, stupid Kai Kein, laugh somemore?! Haha.

Posing.

Another striking pose.

Well, and finally...

The 12th Barker BB Marching Contingent of Founder's Day 2007.

Whoo, got alot more pics.

Too many.

Yet too lazy.

Bad combination.

Oh well.

Haha.


6:34 AM

Past few days were great.

But tiring.

And except saturday morning, everything else was fine.

Well, friday was alright. Spent a few moments cleaning up the admin cause Seth and I messed it up...but oh well I rule supreme cause no ants have come so far. Mwahahaha, ok fine I'm kidding. And alot of people didn't go for cell. So Prash, Xavier, Damien, D.ang, Brandon and I decided to go watch the debates thing. And whoo Barker beat err, what's that school again? K nvm...anyway, when we went back, we foudn out the cell discussion leader(Ben Tan) couldn't make it, so we joined in with the other cell. And yea, it was great. Pride. Just remember, it was pride that brought the fall of Lucifer and the rise of Satan. Better watch out..... After that, Pin Feng fetched Xavier, Damien and I back. Whoo, so kind.

Saturday. Enrolment Parade. Totally sucked man..........don't know, it wasn't even planned properly...gosh and the band...argh. As in, nothing special lah. Just he usual stuff. After the service and the lunch, left with Xavier to his worship practice. Haha Ben was super funny...and Joel owns at bass man, the master bassist...oh whoops did I just say that. Anyway, yay he taught me some stuff about bass. So fun! And yea, practiced more on the drums. And John Wong kept looking out for my foot, making sure it kicks the bass hard. Haha, he kept giving me that stare everytime I didn't. Haha. Whoo!

After that, went home with Xavier.

Sunday was fun. Sang in the choir. Whoo, then choir practice. Then slacked at the social hall with Gabriel, Josh Khoo, Dawn, Tim Chan. All of us were like playing with each other's phone. Haha. Then went to the hawker centre for lunch. After that, I went to meet Xavier and Prash at Cathay to study/watch movie. Yea we watched TMNT. Was great. Brought back memories of how when I was young, I used to be talking about them, and playing their games on my brother's gameboy colour, then I would be imitating them. Haha.

Soemtimes I wished I could become a young kid again. Innocent, playful, work-free. Just playing his own games, doing his own thing. And he won't have a single thought of evil in him. Just wandering free. He can be away from the stress of keeping up with a crazy world. He could just run around, with thoughts of, like, "Ooo, what does this button do?" and everything would seem new to him, seem to be like a great discovery to him. Like he can always look forward to something the next day.

But...

Oh well.

Anyway, after that, went back to school with Prash and Xavier for games. And guess who went too....mwahahahaha. But...oh well..don't know why he keeps ruining his chances. Well, next sunday =p. But playing captain's ball was fun. And quite funny too. Haha.

Well, school today was alright too. But I'm gonna get raped by Samuel Eio, cause I think I lost my MWC...ahhhh. Had REW worship practice after school today. It's kinda like a warning to me that I'm gonna screw up big time. Ahhh, stupid foot, can't kick the bass hard enough. Anyway, Eldad is damn pro! PRO! UNDERSTAND?! PRO! Haha, seriously, he is. But I got a glimpse of tomorrow's worship during REW. Gonna be great.

Well. Finally got the guts to tell somebody some deep dark secret....gosh, took a whole load off my head..but then..now it's coming back...and I'm starting to think of stuff again...argh..sometimes when I look at those two together...it makes me feel happy for them..but then...I feel like making a scene out of it..but then I remember that he's my best friend...and then...I'm in a daze..wondering what to do..then I do stuff that I don't even think off...and then I go away, thinking everything's alright, then it repeats.

Ahhh...

My legs are itching. Stupid ants.

"Lost for words with all to say"

Gonna post some founder's day photos of the band.

Watch out.


Thursday, March 22, 2007
7:27 AM

Yay! Josiah's at my house now. So cutee!!!!

Haha!


7:07 AM

Past two days were great.

Still could not get the drums and the 'Lifesong' out of my mind.

School was alright. Classes were amazingly interesting. Guess, things are starting to look up. But, oh well, sure those bad times will come again. But till' then, enjoy as much as I can :))). Haha.

Anyway, Royston Low's using this Rasputin song to teach history! Lucky thing Joween sent the song to me last year. Haha, thx Jo! And yea, Barney and Zach kept talking about it. So I sent it to them. And yea, it went around the circle of friends. Haha. And guess what, I've rewrote the lyrics of the chorus so that it'll fit KKP. Here it goes.

"KOH, KOH, Koh Kirk Ping
One of the most sickest thing
He always has it hard and stiff
KOH, KOH, Koh Kirk Ping
Singapore's best sex machine
And then it goes right between his teeth."

...K that was lame...

Sorry KKP!! Haha.

Anyway, listened to that song for 2 hours straight. Zach beat me. He had it on from 5 yesterday to about afternoon today.

Totally sick of it liao. Yay.

Anyway. Supposed to have band practice yesterday. But too little peopl turned up, so just practiced for a while then left. Went back with Xavier. Gosh there was this funny guy in the bus 12 we took. I'm never taking that bus ever again. Haha. Xavier will give you details..haha...

Anyway today was also alright. Gosh, testing for cations during practical was fun. The white ppts looked so cute!

Omg, Zachary's still listening to Rasputin even as I type this post. Rock on dude....

Anyway, actually did my homework after school today! Amazing! Haha, and Raymond came for some officers meeting. Haha, Nicklaus and I were bugging him for CS. Haha. Anyway, he showed me some cool stuff about astronomy and so on. He showed me this programme too. So cool! Haha. But it's cheem.

Went back home with Nicklaus, Xavier, Matt Lin. My uncle(Matt's dad) fetched us home. Haha, then Xavier and I took a train from Kembangan. And we were hoping not to see that old man again. Haha.

Got quite a number of things to look forward to tomorrow. Gonna cheer the C Div polo team during their finals tomorrow. Gonna practice with Xav on the PND. Gonna have cell tomorrow.

And also got the photos of Founder's Day and TA Camp from Bin soon. Yay. Haha. I might post them when I have time. Whee.

Here I go.

Again.


Monday, March 19, 2007
8:03 AM

Man, today was great.

Kinda slack for a term 2 school day. Expected lots of work and so on, but it was okay. Haha.

Day started off quite alright too. There was a heavy rain in the morning, which made the air smell like a summer day's air in New Zealand. Brought back memories of my overseas trips to Australia and NZ, which was pleasant. And it was quite retarded when I stepped into class. Haha, I missed sleeping with my head on the table. Haha, Pereira was taking attendance, then he called out my name, then Zhan Tian looked behind then started laughing. "Haha, sleeping as always". Hahahahahaha, sleepyhead....then the day passed quite fast. And I have chem remedial this saturday, which clashes with band. Aiyo...

After school went out with Xavier, Prash, Desmond, Irvin(or issit Ervin?), and some other guy. Think his name's Luke or something, to KAP. Met Euresh there too. And Aaron. And some some BRMC people, like Bryan Ang and Claire. Oo met Heng Bin too. Haha, haven't seen him for a really long time. He seems like he's doing well in ACJC...haha.and yea, actually managed to do my A Maths homework. Whheee, and there was Desmond there to help me too. Haha.

And after that I went straight for bsf. Was cool, learnt quite alot of new stuff that I've not thought about.

And I couldn't stop thinking about music camp and the time yesterday when and where I played for the worship service. Gosh. Kept thinking about drums the whole day lor...my logarithms in A Maths became longer rythms......aiyo....hhaha

Oh well, the next I probably am able to play for service will...well not sure if I can go back in the first place..but it was awesome I tell you....and erm. Can't wait to get back on the drums. Most probably this thursday. Whoo!

And I can't wait to play for REW! Whoo wheee...

Well, gotta finish up a maths now.

Here I go


Sunday, March 18, 2007
5:04 AM

The past few days were great man.

Cell was alright. Usual discussion about faith and so on. Adn the jokes were usual too. Haha.

After cell, found out there was actually worship camp at BRMC! So yea, I wanted to sign up.

And yep, I did.

Well had some stuff to do before I could go though..

The next morning, band practice. I woke up late...sianzz..reached school at about 9.45, which is really late, so yea. After that, sectional practice. Then combine practice. Haha, we're like playing interlude corp all over again...haha...

Well, went for the music camp after that. Matthew was there. Xavier had to go for some PFM thing, so yea, he missed out like 3 hours of the programme. Well, it was really great. That day was awesome. Haha learnt alot in 'band dynamics', about 'cutting' and so on. Also alot of variations of the hymn 'What A Friend We Have In Jesus'. Haha, heard it in normal tune, reggae(Is that how it's spelt it?), country, rock, and they tried doing blues, but it didn't work out. Haha. Was great man. Then after that, jamming, or in other words, practice. Yea, learnt how to do a proper rim shot. Haha. And the people there are awesome. Very kind and helpful, like Ben who helped me with the rim shot and Morris who helped me with the tuning and MarkBala who helped me with the dynamics. Was awesome. And the theme talk was really good too. All about the heart of worship. Anyway, after jamming, we had to move the equipment over to the drama centre. Then we had dinner, well I actually stayed at the drama centre to continue jamming. Then yea, I went to have dinner. Gosh, dinner wasn't really good, part of the food was raw...revolting. After dinner there was practice for the next day's worship session. Led by Daryl. Haha it was awesome man. Morris was suppose to play the drums, but he had to go home, so Mark took over. And yea, he let me played some of the songs. Gosh, was awesome man. I love playing in a open area. You can just smash your heart out and nobody would complain. Had a few tips from Joel, Dean, Bala, Daryl. Yea. It was really awesome, just spamming everything yet playing music. The song that I played by the way, was Lifesong, by Casting Crowns. It is a really good song. All about your lifesong, which is your worship to God. Listening to it right now. Haha. Anyway, yea, I really enjoyed playing. And I also wanted to play for the worship the next day. Good thing there were two slots. And yay, I got the one of the slots. Was really happy. And I thank Daryl and Bala for letting me play....whee..

After that, nothing much really happened, except that we went for midnight lan. And Xavier and I went back to the lan centre to search for something 'that was already found'. Haha. And on the way back, we saw people getting arrested too. Qutie retarded. The officer slapped that guy on the back. Haha.

Ok, day 2, which was today. Had Mcdonalds for breakfast. Then packed up. Haha. And then it was the worship. Was really really nervous, never played in a crowd this big before. Yea, but it went alright, I guess. Personally I didn't think it was as good as the night before, but still. And wah lau, William was watching me play. Made me freak out man...but he said I improved! But he also said he could own me. Haha. Well, according to Wei En and Abraham he said that. Well, anyway, went on to Sunday School Class feeling depressed cause I didn't play as well as I tried too. But then again, got comments from other people that it was okay, just that it needed to be louder, cause it's a big stage. So yep, will try harder next time. And thanks for all the encouragement and support, everyone!

Well, that's about it for music ministry camp, though I wished it would be even longer. (I missed the first day btw). Gosh. Was a great experoence.....I can't stop saying that, can I?

After sunday school, slacked at the canteen. And Xavier got the shock of his life! Haha. But then towards the end of the day things didn't turn out as it was expected for him...well cheer up dude there's always next week and the week after the next. Anyway, slacked, slept, did my bsf in the admin room. Also played dota, which was getting really boring...yep, then went for games. Played soccer. Was fun.

After that, packed up admin room with Xavier. And he was telling me how he regretted..nevermind. Yea, was suppose to go home by myself, but then there was space on his mum's car. So yay. Had 'pre-dinner' and a few good conversations. Then his mum fetched me home. And something happened in the car that was really demoralising for Xavier. An sms, to be specific. Oh well...

Reached home. And now I'm blogging.

Still got A Maths to do.

Oh well.

"It's doesnt matter if you're a drummer or guitarist or bassist or soundman or pianist or vocalist, it's all for God"


Thursday, March 15, 2007
10:51 PM

EEEEEEEE.

Reading the last post gives me goosebumps....

Sick.

Revolting.

Gross.

Well, nothing much today...yet. Had tuition this morning, that's all. And now I'm playing com...sianzz..gonna have cell later though. It should be the highlight of today...

And...there's nothing much to read on blogs these days....it's like every guy friend I know is hardly blogging and every girl friend I know is blogging about hanakimi and wuzun....

Don't know lah.


8:39 AM

Today was great.

GREAT.

You understand.

As in seriously lah, not the sarcastic one.

Whoo.

Morning. Suppose to go and meet Barney to get back my stuff, but then suddenly I remembered I had tuition when my tutor came at 10 this morning. Haha. Well, after that, immediately rushed off. Yep, played abit of lan..yes I know I'm a noob liver I mean leaver....haha cooling I mean culling blade..HAHA! Just found out Chia's weakness. K, nevermind. Anyway, after that, most of us(Zach, KKP, Chia and Barney) walked to Marina Square. Bowling. Whee. Was fun. And, yea super retarded too, as usual. (Especially with Barney there). Throwing bowling balls everywhere..and I saved $1.50 by escaping the "socks counter". Haha, played without socks. After that, I had to go for my doctor's appointment to remove my cast, while the rest continued bowling. Or should I call it throwing balls with full force. Haha. Yea, went over, met my mum, got it checked, was good, cast removed, went back out. Yay. Haha. Went to Chia's house. Well had to wait outside, cause they were at Simei waiting for Chia to be done with his dental check up. Haha. So yea, waited for an hour. Then they came over. And we had lotsa fun. Haha. Did super retarded stuff. Hafta keep it confidential for your metal health. :)

So yea, shared cab with KKP back home. And now he owes me 2.50. Haha.

Well, finally checked up my moodle. Got lotsa A Maths powerpoint slides. Haha.

And oh well...

Nic Lai's been feeling stressed...part of growing up I guess?

Wished life was like a fantasy...where everyone could have a happy ending...

And more of those feelings coming back....

Jealousy....anger...don't know...

Just don't feel like doing anything...

Just feel like watching the world go by....

Happy endings....sad endings....

Just stay watching...

Well. Not sure what to do.

Shit.

Tomrrow's f..f..ffriday.

W-which means t-that...THERE'S ONLY 3 DAYS TILL' SCHOOL STARTS!

Die liao.

Goobye world.



What he did was unforgivable...
Fate is unforgiving...
But, because of this...
Unforgiving fate...
I have the joy of reminiscing
Of the fate that brought you to me


Wednesday, March 14, 2007
2:08 AM

Yay. Changed my blog skin.

Happy now, Traci?

Haha.

I tried looking for a skin that suited this song "Gifts and Curses" by Yellowcard, and this was the closest that I could get to. So yea, though the song refers more to Spiderman rather that FF7, it's still kinda similar. After that I decided to chip in two other songs for fun. And thanks Choo! For the music.

And don't bother about the words on the left, it's in the skin itself, so I can't really do anything about it.

So yep. That's all for the skin.

Now for today. Woke up in the morning, panicking, cause I woke up late for my cycling trip. But then I called Barney and he said it was canceled, so yea. He's gonna come later to pass my phone, wallet and keys back. Yay.

After that, played com, talked to people on msn. Then I didn't know what to do. Cause I was seriously bored. So I asked around, see who was free. Then I gave up asking, so I went cycling. by myself. Cycled to Matthew Lin's house. But nobody was home, so I was like exhausted, wondering what to do now. So I went back. Much easier route. Less paths under construction and so on...yea came back, found out my dad was at home, and so was my uncle. Haha my uncle says he's on the paper, talking about mrt and so on. Haha.

Dead tired now.

Gosh my stamina sucks.

Haha.

Doing my online chemistry quiz now.

Finally.


Tuesday, March 13, 2007
6:46 AM

(Greeting here)

All right, holidays have started. But it doesn't seem like holidays anymore leh...

As in all the work and stuff....or rather just the stress of knowing you have homework...

Haha....

Well, past two days were fine.

Spent the whole of yesterday slacking...didn't really do much. Well, woke up quite late anyway, too late to find out that Barney, Zach and a whole lot of other people were at KKP's house(which is like right next to mine).

Today was quite eventful. Woke up in the morning, played CS on Xbox. Then got a call from Barney, asking whether he could put their bags at my house(since Mitch, Nico, Jon Fan and Barney were cycling around the neighbourhood). So, yea, they came over, put bags at my house, then went off to cycle. Then continued playing com....After like an hour or so, they cam back. Then Barney showed me his chem project(haha retarded man). Then yea, all of them came over(Mitch and Nico, who were supposedly 'lost', came) Haha. Yea, then we decided to play basketball, but the problem was that we had no ball, so Barney decided to go to KKP's house to see whether he was there. So yea, went down, found out I was the only one without a bike, so went back up, brought my dad's old bike down, got it's wheels pumped, also got checked out by Nico and Barney. Yea, it's suspensions are screwed, so there was this funny feeling while I was cycling. Haha. Anyway, we cycled around, then we all decided to cylce to east coast, but Barney said my bike wouldn't make it, so Nico, Mitch and Fan cycled back to like dunnoe Bukit Timah or somewhere around there while Barney and I went to KKP's house. Had some fun trying to get the bikes up in one lift, then more fun trying to park them outside KKP's house in this small narrow corridor(commonly known as a staircase). Yep, went in, played mroe com. Haha CS and 2142. There's nothing much about 2142, just that the guns look cooler and there's this walker vehicle thing. Yea, and KKP has a punching bag in his room. Well, messed around with KKP's com, as in disturbing people like Zach on msn....haha...then we decided to go play BBall. We did manage to play for abit, but after a while it started raining..haha...well it's difficult shooting with a slab on your left arm. Missed all my 3-pointers...either too much str or too little...haha...Yep, then they came over to my house. Played Xbox. Haha super retarded man. Played Forza Motorsport. Simulation racing. And as usual, Barney messed around again..haha like crush gears instead of racing. Well, after about an hour, they had to go back. Barney cycled all the way back to Toa Payoh...sianzz..Anyway, KKP came back soon after, asking whether he left his house keys here. Then I was like 'oh shit' it's with Barney. My phone and wallet was in Barney's bag too. Then we were like panicking, like oh shit Barney's probably like somewhere in the middle of Singapore now. But anyway, got his number from Zach(yay) and then called him. Well it isn't easy calling somebody who not only put his handphone in his bag but is also dashing through the streets of Singapore on a bike. So yea, managed to get through. Only 15 mins had passed since he left, but he was like at Kallang already -.-. So yea, decided to go cycling again tomorrow, so he'll bring back the keys, phone and wallet.

So yep, gonna cycle to Paya Lebar tomorrow to meet him, then we're gonna cycle over to my house tomorrow.

As for now, gotta do my chemistry online quiz. And also hunt for photos of band camp. :)


Sunday, March 11, 2007
6:02 AM

Dammit.

Was feeling great, or maybe just trying to relax, from the fact that I still have to where this cast even though I feel alright. Well, yea it was great, until she came in...

Anyway, school on friday was fine. Did my napfa 5 stations. Didn't manage to get what I was aiming for...but well it's still a gold at least..so yea, happy about that.

After that, had band camp. Yay. Started off with soccer. And guess what? I tripped and fell -.-. Put some ice on it. Was better. But it kept getting worse. Anyway, had band practice. But I hardly contributed anything cause of my wrist...and yea anyway I kept getting suan-ed...sianzz...ran into a few problems...

Day 2. Went to ACS(I) in the morning for enrolment parade rehearsal. Man it sucked. Tried playing, and guess what, it got worse...sianzz...and the drum maj...argh nevermind. After that, went back, ate lunch, then went to hospital to get my arm checked. It was seriously crazy being with John Wu at KK....haha. Anyway, turned out that it wasn't a fracture. Just a muscle contusion. But the doctor still put a cast on me. Not the full one though, just a slab. Anyway, went back feeling all depressed, cause that meant that I couldn't play for the performance(which I had been anticipating with lotsa excitement) the next day. So yea, went back, feeling depressed, watched them played soccer. Oh yah. Haha soccer was really really funny. Haha one of the scenes..Darren was like fooling around lah, as in making alot of mistakes..yea and one of his mistakes. Haha he was trying to stop the ball in mid-air, so he lifted up his leg, and...wham...ok nevermind. Yea, we laughed alot after that, then Damien said "Eh, it's no more fight fire with fire, it's fight balls with balls." What the hell lah. Had a good abs training session, it was all laughing.....yep...but anyway, later I was damn happy. Cause I found out that I was able to play! Yay...after that, dinner, practice, then movie marathon. Haha only had time to watch one movie...haha.

This morning, woke up, feeling all excited about the performance. Yea. Was great. Everything went smoothly. But we were tired after that lah, as in all the bunk cleaning, debrief(haha), and yea other stuff. Also went for the church service. Man had a great time eating lunch together after that. Had quite a laugh too. And yea, watching movies in the admin room. Quite relaxing.
Yea everybody left one by one, then it wa just me and Xavier. Watched Shanghai Noon. Well, halfway only, but still, it was damn funny. And yea wanted to join in for games after that, but they were worried about my arm, so yea didn't play in the end.

Went back. Yea and now I'm back.

Was feeling excited. About, you know, having a good dinner and being able to relax. Well, got pissed off while I was bathing cause it was like my arm was alright already but I still had to put on that cast. Had alot of problems bathing. What was made worse was that..ahh..heck about it lah...

Now I don't know to do. Actually, I don't even feel like doing anything. Did what I wanted to do, Experienced what I wanted to experience. Well, dunnoe lah.

All I can feel now is anger.

Though it's suppose to be a joyous moment...


Wednesday, March 07, 2007
5:10 AM

Wow. Amazing. Posting twice on the same day.

Haha.

Just watch a few good shows...quite cool. Never watched such good TV for quite a long time. Kinda brings me back.

Yea had a chat with a few people just now.

Haha. I'm trying, repeat trying, to do my homework...yea, reminds me of last year. Everytime I would study in the rom where I'm in now during my exam period. And yea, everytime I felt I couldn't take in anymore, I would retire to my good ol' pair of KP3 sticks and start trying out new rudiments on my drumpad. I'd just start playing anything that would come to my head, and, you know, start the flow, get things going. Well, it starts things up in my brain. Then yea, I would go back to my textbook, start reading again.

Why I'm posting this? Well, I'm not too sure either. Maybe that's why they call it a blog.

Anyway, kinda woken up by the movie I just watched. I can bet ya it was by Pixar. Their movies are always great, though random at times. Yea.

Gotta buy new sticks soon btw....anybody would like to donate to the Uriah-needs-a-future-before-Simon-starts-scolding-him fund?

Oh yea, having worship practice for tomorrow. For band camp. Haha. Dunnoe what to do. I'm gonna play guitar. Ahhh, first time playing it leh...ahhh....die..haha. Oo and Kai Bin changed his strings. He says it's like smooth and rust-less now. Like whoo, a caress-able guitar? That sounds cool...oh wait...no it doesn't...

Yep, that's about all I've got in my mind.


1:41 AM

Ooo damn happy today.

School was alright. Well, last three periods was all Saras. At first I thought it'll be damn sian lah, but it turned out alright. In fact acutally like one of the best periods of the day. Haha, though I failed my ss test by one mark...ahhh...

And Matthew dislocated his knee. He lost his knee, oh no we have to look for it! Haha he's alright though. He seemed as if nothing happened. So oh well.

And after school. Bowling! With Barney, Zachary, Darren, KKP and DJ. Gosh damn happy now! I best like the best I ever played! All my scores were above 120..and my highest was 161! So happy! :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:P

Yay.

Well, later I'm having tuition...sianzz....and erm, school tomorrow. Haha. Gotta do my homework. Ahhh!!!


Tuesday, March 06, 2007
5:34 AM

The Last Song

This may be the last thing that I write for long
Can you hear me smiling when I sing this song
For you and only for you

As I leave will you be someone to say goodbye
As I leave will you be someone to wipe your eye
My foot is out the door, and you can't stop me now

You wanted the best, it wasn't me, will you give it back
Now i'll take the lead, when there's no more room to make it grow
I'll see you again, you'll pretend you're naive, is this what you want
Is this what you need, how you end up let me know

As I go, remember all the simple things you know
My mind is just a crutch and I still hope
That you will miss me when I'm gone
This is the last song

The hearts start breaking as the year is gone
The dream's beginning and the time rolls on
It seems so surreal, now I sing it.

Somehow I knew that it would be this way
Somehow I knew that it would slowly fade
Now I'm gone, just try and stop me now.

You wanted the best, it wasn't me, will you give it back
Now i'll take the lead, when there's no more room to make it grow
I'll see you again, you'll pretend you're naive, is this what you want
Is this what you need, how you end up let me know

As I go, remember all the simple things you know
My mind is just a crutch and I still hope
That you will miss me when I'm gone
This is the last song

And will you need me now, you'll find a way somehow
You want it too, I want it too

As I go, remember all the simple things you know
My mind is just a crutch and I still hope
That you will miss me when I'm gone
This is the last song


4:30 AM

Wah lau. Some funny thing happened and my whole post was erased. Anyway, here I go again.

Damn tired now.

Just ran for my 2.4 napfa test.

Ran like there was no tomorrow.

Well, yea, I don't know my timing. Teacher's didn't mention, but it was recorded in this computer. Yea they used a machine to keep track of our timing. Dammit lah, I'm sick of technology. Why keep using machines?

Why I'm so fussy over this matter? Erm the height and weight machine screwed up my height and weight. So yea.

Anyway, school was alright. And I think my 2.4's alright too. I didn't walk even for abit, and Gerald said I ran quite fast, and Gerald's standard is quite high(well that's what I think). Yea, last time I actually ran instead of walk I got a 11.38. Whoohoo.

Anyway, some people didn't perform at their best....expected Kheng to get like 7-8 minutes...he got 9.45. And I expected Xavier to get 10 minutes...he got 11.38...well, he says it's the heat. I guess so too.

Anyway, I'm gonna try erm posting up this pic. I'm trying to a avatar pic for my class's forum. Or rather Ex-class's forum. Btw, this is a screenshot from Dawn Of War. Or rather half a screenshot. Trying to minimise it as far as I can. Yep. Here it goes.

Ok fine so it can't work. Something's wrong with my internet. Dang.


Monday, March 05, 2007
5:57 AM

Hey. Back. I guess I'm only free enough on Mondays and Sundays to post.

And guess what. I lost my timetable. I had to guess what lessons we were having today..and gosh I was correct! Haha so cool...

Anyway, day didn't start off well....personal reasons...but chapel turned the whole thing over. In other words, chapel was GREAT! Mr Lai led well(no offense, but he needs to work on his singing..) still, it was great. The drummer was stunning. Totally inspired. Song choice, Sermon, everything.

The sermon was about consistency. Taken from the book of Titus. Short book. Think I wanna read it myself to understand it more, though the speaker has like said everything already...haha...

Well, lessons were ok...until emath came...sianzz...

Well, after recess, lessons were getting better. Alex Lee's damn good lah...we did a online test. Haha, and I got 14/20...ee not what I expected, but's ok lah. It's still an A. Then physics test after that...sianz...was mentally preapred to fail...and I'm guessing I will. And a great way to end off the day. Chinese. Haha I love CLB. And there was a new teacher. So it was like two teachers in the class. And I was surprised lah. I thought he came from China, so he'd totally be like chinese speaking...haha but he's singaporean and his english is probably better than like whole class combined. Haha. We also did a test. Simple one. Think I'll pass this one.

After that, went our to Far East with Xavier and Brandon. Eat lunch at subway. Great man. But expensive. And OMG Brandon's my new best friend. You know why? HE'S GETTING TWO MASTER PEARLS!!!!!! Gosh, jamming center liao. So cool man. His house is gonna be my second home. Haha. He also getting guitars and stuff....After that we went to BB hq. Sign some stuff. For soem reason I feel bad...nevermind.

After that, went shopping at Great World City, then back to school. Xavier was quite pissed, cause he went back only to find out that admin room's closed. And he left his hw and stuff inside. So yea....anyway, went back home together.

Tuition. Maths.

Then BSF. Learnt about justification.

Made me think alot. Expecially since what I've been through for the past few days. It's a question that has been asked in cell group twice. Contemplated alot on it just now. Why is it a sin to commit suicide? Well...I've thought alot...and this is what I believe. I believe why we should not commit suicide because it defeats the whole purpose of God even creating us in the first place. He has planned everything out, and I bet He put sin inside the story, so that we would be able to learn. Learn from our mistakes. I think He wants life to be a learning process after we believe in Him, so that we would be deemed fit for Heaven. So that we would have that shield of faith. So that we would be able to know what we should do whenever stuff don't go right. Or when the things of evil oppose us. So that we would have that strong faith and desire and belief. So that we could be made perfect through His grace. We can't take any shortcut to perfection. We hafta learn. And that's why we shouldn't end our own lives. We need to learn, learn to pull through, learn to respect, be selfless, be kind, and so on. I believe by commiting suicide, it just proves you're a weakling. A wimp. A coward, who doesn't dare face life because all he wants is a shortcut to everything.

Well, it's kinda weird for me to post this..and I might be wrong...but well. I've been thinking alot lately. "Let us now silently contemplate"....haha sounds familiar? Nah, I don't like that show. Anyway. Yep. Thinking alot. Past events. Future events. Present events. Don't know. I should just move along. It's gotta be the right thing to do. Not all the world is bad...I've hardly seen anything yet anyway.

Got 2.4 tomorrow. Not prepared. I'm confident that I'll past. But well...don't know how well...aiming for a ten by the way...last year I got 11. Oh yah, a way to motivate myself. The score between Gomez and me is like 2-2. In terms of arm wrestling, napfa...all those physical stuff lah. Haha thoughts of beating him could be inspiration.

And btw, Nic Lai, I'm fine now. Thanks for your concern. :)


Sunday, March 04, 2007
6:42 AM

...Suddenly it's all so peaceful now...


6:41 AM

It's funny, but everytime I think of the stuff that happened last year.....clarity joins in....


6:37 AM

Damn it lah...now I can't concentrate on my chemistry...


6:28 AM

Damn pissed now....seriously...I can't take it anymore...I just wanna runaway...please....just take me away...don't think I can face this anymore


Saturday, March 03, 2007
11:36 PM

Back. After five days. Posting. Blog.

Founder's Day was great. Marching was great. Alot of people liked Interlude Corp. Haha guess what? It's only the first 3 lines, wait till' we show you more....hehehe....anyway, after that, slacked around until school ended. Afetr school...slacked. changed out, then went to paradiz. Played lan. Yea, haha I'm losing my skills...haha what skills...ok nevermind. Yea, went with Jerome, Andrew, Brandon, Barnabas, Sean, Ben Choy. Met Xavier there. Yea Andrew, Ben, Jerome and I continued to play dota while Xavier and the rest went to play pool. Yep, we went to meet them after that. And yea, that's about it.

Oh yah, Barney(ong) came to my house after that. Cause he had church, as it was near my house...so yea...haha he went to make fun of a certain somebody...quite retarded...

Thursday was quite eventful. Went out with Barney, Zach, KKP to NSRCC. But before that, they all came to my house...haha...played Halo, Fifa...funny stuff lah. Yea we went bowling, pool...gosh..burnt holes in our pockets...haha the bowling cost like 40+ bucks lah...anyway, after that we went back to Tampines. Bought bubble tea! Haha. Lucky thing there was no pearl fight...hehe...oh yah, Chia and Mitch were suppose to come..but yea, Mitch had tuition and Chia was grounded...sad..just imagine if both of them were around...haha cool...oh yah. The first time I enjoyed pearls. It was like so good lor. Soft and squishy..not hard and stiff...easier to chew...eh Kirk, don't think sick...

Friday kinda sucked....bad stuff happened...shit on my bag...toilet bowl water on my shoes...gosh...dunnoe what's his problem...anyway, went for cell...Xavier and Brandon..making fun of me...even Prash(kinda like a paradox eh?)haha don't kill me Prash, I didn't mean anything on that...stupid bag...I mean the shit on my bag...yea...and erm...I kept making fun of Xavier too...haha sorry...I'll try my best to stop..though you can wack me if I start again.

Dunnoe lah. Friday was like all about anger. Anger. Anger. And Anger. And there was that certain somebody...dunnoe what's her problem too...gets angry at everybody else except the person who really did it...aiyah...

Saturday. Didn't go for band. Had worship stuff to settle. And yea, worship sucked. Seriously. Dunnoe lah...I'm too dull, ain't I? And yea, next time I lead, I'll choose more familiar songs...must listen to ex-csm...haha. Anyway, after that, left for YI. Played for Gabriel's worship session. Quite cool. Something to brighten up my day. And yea, had Bible study. On the book of 1 Timothy. Learnt alot about pride and false teaching.

And yep. Sunday. Sang in choir. Quite cool. And then breakfast. At first I thought I was suppose to go home and study..but then I realised my mum was going for second service, so I went for choir practice...yep...and...

All those feelings. About....they're coming back...everytime I think or see...it's been like so long....don't know...can't keep it in. I wanna shout it out, but then I'll feel afraid to face the world again...All I want...don't know leh..should be concentrating on my studies...which I don't really give a damn about cause everything seems so meaningless...

Just read a story. The same story which I have read three times so far, And I really love it, though it's fiction. Bascially about a murder. Of an angel. By an angel. Quite interesting. It's a short story...

"He glanced around uncomfortably. "It's a feeling of deep affection and attraction for another being, often combined with passion or desire - a need to be with another." He spoke dryly, didactically, as if he were reciting a mathematical formula. "The feeling that we have for the Name, for our Creator - that is Love...amongst other things. Love will be an impulse that will inspire and ruin in equal measure. We are..." He paused, then began once more. "We are very proud of it.""

Don't know why I'm so interested in it though...

Bet my bro will scold me for this post.

Dunnoe lah.

Just wanna scream my lungs out.

....Still waiting for...