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Friday, March 14, 2008
10:22 PM

If the heart is always searching,
Can you ever find a home?
I've been looking for that someone,
I'll never make it on my own.
Dreams can't take the place of loving you,
There's gotta be a million reasons why it's true

When you look me in the eyes,
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise
, When you look me in the eyes.

How long will I be waiting,
To be with you again
Gonna tell you that I love you,
In the best way that I can.
I can't take a day without you here,
You're the light that makes my darkness disappear.

When you look me in the eyes,
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes.

More and more, I start to realize,
I can reach my tomorrow, I can hold my head high,
And it's all because you're by my side.

When you look me in the eyes,
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When I hold you in my arms
I know that it's forever
I just gotta let you know
I never wanna let you go

When you look me in the eyes.
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes.

Yea, when you look me in the eyes...=)


Thursday, March 13, 2008
5:46 AM

Gosh I'm kinda dull now.

Heh went to school in the morning for the Integration lessons..yeps went there first thing I saw was Halim and the rest of the youth...yeps saw Abigail. Haha and I saw Diane too..with her tennis bag haha. But I didn't see Justin, or Xavier or Damien. So yea, was wondering what camp it was...hehe. Yep, then slacked around in Cumaran's room, then went for lesson. Hehe was kinda ok? Yea kinad got the hang of it, but only integrating power rule. Haha I'm still lost at the rest, esp trigo O.O Haha.

Then met Barney, DJ, Darren and BK. Heh heard all their stories at Wayne's house the previous night. Haha sounds damn fun man...should have gone. Haha but I heard that his older brother was damnnn scary...Yea. But yea DJ and Barney didn't sleep at all. So you could imagnie how they were like..haha playing lan at 3 am, going swimming in an ice-frozen spine chilling skin cutting swimming pool at 5am. Gosh I should have been there too..haha. Oh and the J-walking part was damn funny. There were at bukit timah road at like 4 am? And yea they jay walked 3 times, and got caught by the police 3 times too! Haha but no fine or anything..Yea DJ was telling me "In the night, there are only 3 types of cars. Fast cars, Taxis, and police cars." Haha yea and Barney told me "DJ said when they were gonna jay walk the thrid time, and DJ said "If there's gonna be another police car horning at us, I'm gonna kill myself."" And guess what, it did. Haha. Gosh can't believe I missed the fun man...yep then we went to play lan at Parklane. Played CS, then later we met Jun Kai, and he joined us. Then we played dota, but Barney sat this one out, yeps. Darren and me vs DJ and BK. Yea we won, but it seemed quite alright. Like, dunnoe haven't played lan for so long. The feeling feels different. Haha. Oh and btw I was in my school uniform throughout. Haha oh well =p Yep, then BK and Darren left in a cab, and DJ left too.

So it was just Barney and me. Walked to PS to eat lunch...first we thought of Subway, but I wanted to eat rice, so we went to Kopitiam. But we couldn't find a seat, so we thought of going to Yoshinoya. But aong the way I also managed to grab salmon sushis. Yep, went down, and the queue was longer than Gavin's younger brother. So we decided LJS, which was next door. But it was crowded too, so we walked to the LJS outside. Yep, finally reached there, and I was so eager to get my hands on the grilled fish with rice, but guess what. They ran out of rice. Haha so yea, wasted trip...oh well. But yea, we sat and ate and talked. Haha was kinda cool to chill out. Yep, and it works even better when it rains outside non-stop. Oh I forgot to mention, I was asking Barney about this girl he talking to when I was at Cine with Kelly last time, and guess what, we coincidentally bumped into her at starbucks. Haha I'm so psychic =P Yep, then we went off (he didn't want to take bus cause he didn't want to fall asleep haha!), and I waited 30 mins for 518. Met Isaac Heng and friends, and Tim Koh and other people also while waiting. Yep.

And that was pretty much my day.

And I was kinda depressed this whole morning...cause I saw so many boys and girls holding hands, and it made me think alot. Alot about what, well I don't wanna say...heh.

Yea and I'm pretty much interested in learning Muay Thai! Haha yea watched some videos on it, hmm and Wayen recommended this place at Macpherson, so yea. Maybe I'll try it out after O's or sth, like during the free months..haha studies first man. =D

But yea. Thank God that she's happy today. Studying with her friends and all. And meeting up with her head prefect. Was praying that she'd not be stressed and be happy..guess my prayers are answered =D

But, there was something slightly different about her post today...hmm...

Anyways, yea I'm trying to cheer myself up now.

Oh and Nicholas (Noelle's younger bro) was so funny! I called Noelle's house, and he picked then I asked him where his sister went. And he was like "Oh my sister went to put this thing into her eyes that make her see better." Then I could hear Agens shouting "Contacts lenses lar!" Then Nic was like, "oh yea lenses...ahh forgot the word lar!" Haha so cute.

But something's bothering me now.

Yeps, looking forward to tomorrow. Haha meeting up with Brandon and all. Yea.

Oh and now my whole body's aching..worked out the whole day, and I finally finished my last packet of proteins...yay now I don't hafta worry about anything expiring anymore...heh...

And luckily the expired bread and peanut butter didn't get into me Yay! Haha...

But I'm guessing she doesn't like me anymore


Wednesday, March 12, 2008
6:35 AM

Today was kinda ok I guess?

Yea, screwed up my physics spa. But hey, everyone else did, so umm..well don't know whether that's supposed to be encouraging or not. Hmmm...

Yea, satyed in admin room. Slacked. Ate expired bread and peanut butter. That's how crazy I can get. Ooh and the peanut butter had some oil residue on top...hehe I'm so damn gross. Yea, then had quite a stomach ache after that. Went back home, bought Sotong from Old Chang Kee (yummy), then walked home. Hmm yea, then slacked around, played com. Received sms that I have tuition tomorrow.

Yea. Played DOW, talked to Noelle. Gosh I've broken the record. 4 hours! Haha sian my left ear hurts now. I can't even talk that long to Laura, so yea. Awww so sad...

And she can't talk that long either..

Mhm, so I kinda dazed now. Cause I used the com the whole day. Played some funny games from armorgames.com. Ohh and I found this pretty cool puzzle game thing..which is really gory, but screw it haha. Yea, played some other games, surfed the net, especially ____'s blog...couldn't keep my eyes off it...

I'm really scared now. Cause...I think it's my fault she's like that. And I can see something different in her...

I'll just have to wait till friday. But going to friday means I hafta get through thursday. Dammit...hmm oh well.

I really miss the talks we had.

And I still think it's my fault.

Can't get my head off it.

I should have done better..but I didn't...

I don't wanna be this shy anymore...

But still....

Your love's a gathered storm
I chased across the sky
A moment in your arms
became the reason why
And you're still the only light that fills the emptiness
The only one I need until my dying breath
And I would give you everything just to
Feel your open arms
And I'm not sure I believe anything I feel

And now, now that you're near
There's nothing more without you
Without you here

And I'm trying to believe
In things that I don't know
The turning of the world
The color of your soul
That love could kill the pain
Truth is never vain
It turns strangers into lovers
And enemies to brothers
Just say you understand
I never had this planned

And now, now that you're near
There's nothing more without you
Without you here
Without you here
There's nothing more without you
Without you here

My head lies to my heart
And my heart it still believes
It seems the ones who love us are the ones
That we deceive
But you're changing everything
You're changing everything in me

And now, now that you're near
There's nothing more without you
Without you here

Without You Here - Goo Goo dolls.

That's my song for you, babyy♥


Tuesday, March 11, 2008
6:43 AM

I promise, I'll be strong for you
And I'd stop crying too
In fact I'll try to make them tears of joy
I promise I'll be happy, just for you alright?
=)


6:35 AM

It feels weird.

Even though it's just two days, I...

I feel so empty without her.

Am I alright?

And I'm in the midst of preparing for Physics SPA. I am so dead =D

And kinda tired now...heh I don't want tomorrow to come! But I want friday to come..so yea it's weird I know.

She hasn't been replying my emails....and I can't get to her through the phone...It feels so...

..I can't get a word for it.

Hmm, not sure what else I'm supposed to do.

Hmm and I need to talk to Brandon again..yea. Haha too bad he's overseas now? Yea...oh well. And Noelle's watching L with her friends now. So there's no one to talk to on the phone, maybe except Laura and Candice on skype...but oh well...Nic's also probably busy with school work. Dunnoe lar.

Heh, I'm just deprived, depressed, delusioned...

I'm living for her, breathing for her, singing for
her fairytale...

Heh, I forgot what I was looking for...


Monday, March 10, 2008
11:01 PM

Haiz I shall decide to post.

Haha past two weeks were pretty hectic, tests and so on.

Founder's Day was a blast as usual, haha even teachers like Faizal commented on my mace throwing, so cool haha! Yep.

Hmm rawr I'm too lazy to post about everything happen. So I shall start with just this week. Haha I'm pretty happy that I finally pass an A Maths test! Not only that, I got a distinction for it =D Haha yay happy as a bird. Yep, then on thursday I went for the SAFTI learning journey with Brandon adn his calss. Haha quite interesting, learning about their rations and stuff. And Brandon kept making fun of Shane lor, so mean haha. Oh and going up the SAFTI tower was damn funny! Haha Marcus Ng and Dom Pek were damn funny, like, they were the only jokers like squatting down and not looking down. Haha then when they had to go into the lift they had to lean against the wall to go in...haha yea then after that we all jumped into the lift, then everybody was jumping around and screaming and Marcus Tong was making techno music, and we were all like freaking out...haha even the security guy was laughing when the lift doors opened..haha. Yea and Brandon kept telling me about him receiving awards during the POP there...and like how Laura would run up to him and hug him and say aww I'm so proud of you that kinda thing..haha so cute lar. Yea. And the rations are pretty tasty and feeling, esp the biscuits! Yep, other than that I can't really remember already.

Oh freak I almost forgot about the most important thing! REW! Haha it rocked man! Damien Tang was on E Guit, Kai Bin on acoustics, Jerome on bass, Slim on keyboard, Brandon, Elim and Mr Lai were singing, and me on the drums! Haha the first day was kinda bad, cause we screwed up Adonai pretty badly...but the one on friday went really really well. Haha I didn't make any mistakes at all! But we didn't get to play the bridge of Now that You're Near cause of time constrain...aww but Saviour King still went really well. Haha and the sermons were cool adn pretty comical. The testimonials were interesting...yep...you don't need to see to love..yea. Wonder how it's like being blind. Yeps anyways yea everything went well on the friday REW, so yea. Ooh and the rest of the day was pretty slack. Like, I got dismissed at 1 o clock cause my class had to go for the SAFTI thing, but since I already went on the day before, I didn't need to go =D Yippie haha. So yea, ended up meeting Kel at Orchard, and Clemence was there and I happened to be talking to Brandon over the phone at that time, so yea Brandon talked to Clemence over my phone..wonder what they were talking about...haha. Had to wait for them to take neoprints though. Haha and I also met Mimi there! Haha so coincidental...and she was trying to geuss Kel's name. She kept guessing Karen...dunnoe why haha. And ACS International's so cool! Like, you don't need to tie your hair, you can wear earrings and so on. Haha private schools these days...=p

Yep, then went on a long bus ride with Kel to Hebron. Kelly tried to make things up between me and Daniel, it worked for a while, but then yea things didn't really worked out afetr that. She tried smsing him with my phone...and he deleted my number too. Haha must really hate me man. Oh well, yep reached the church, Met Dan, Nat, Josh and Jasper. They were playing some board game...yea then Arthur came along too. Haha funny guy man..but woah he kinda scared me after he told me that you need to know calculus to do chem! Ahhh haha I better work on my A Maths man...Yea and he was talking about the teens these days..aiyo..haha! Yea, then Arthur, Dan and I went to get food and stuff. And Daniel was busy gyming all the way. Yea haha cool...yep. Then came back, and we sat and listened to this Canadian guy speak about Good Friday. Yep, pretty cool and all, then we had captain's ball! Haha super fun man, and I'm getting the hang of blocking already! Yea man I'm on for this year's CAC haha...yeps. Then we had KFC dinner, and Daniel and I sparred again. Haha pretty fun...oh well. Kinda bored of it though...

Saturday! Band..umm don't wanna talk about it. We had a small jamming session after that, then Brandon and I slept during the fall in of parade, cause we were damn tired...Brandon had a hangover from the party last night, haha yea. Too much Blue Label...stupid Raine, where did you get all those stuff? =p haha kidding lar Raine...Yeps. Then watched the company play Laser Tag. Then I joined Mr Lai, Tim, Damien and Matthew from sniping from the third story. Haha then went down, and like, Nicklaus, Choo, Bin Soon and me were sitting on the bleaches in one line, singing acapella stuff and so on. But we were interrupted by Daniel trying to beat Kentdrew up. Yep, oh well. Then I remember dismissal after that. Gosh haven't had a dismissal for so long, cause I usually leave parade early due to YI, but this year not on saturday anymore, yea. Yep. Then went to Caltex with Jun Kai and Brandon. Drank and talked, went with them to the bus stop, hey got on a taxi, then I went back to Caltex to meet the primers and so on. Haha funny man, I miss calling Matthew cow. Haha was wondering why Bin Soon and Nicklaus and Bryant were talking so much about the Moo Ice cream, then I remembered Matthew. Haha yea. Yea but Damien took even longer to get it..haha good old times mannn...really miss it. Yea, then Choo, Nicklaus and Bin Soon bought this jelly ice cream thing Haha pretty slimy and freaky..yea. Went back, and we started getting ready for Midnight Laser Tag. Yea.

I shall save on paragraph for it. It was damn fun! Haha. We split ourselves into two teams, the CT and Terrors =D (Not so original eh hehe) Yep, I was on the CTs, with Bryant, Uncle Chris, Xavier, Damien, Matthew, Gavin and Hari. Yea and we all spilt ourselves into partners, yea and I was with Xavier. Haha damn good man, good teamwork and so on. Kinda tired on posting every exact detail...but yea. I remember one funny part, like we were walking past the tennis courts and Xavier was in front of me. Went into the tennis courts, and I heard like some gun shooting, but I couldn't see anything (cause it was dark), so yea, ran out, went to look for Xavier, then we took out some people at the toilets, and after that Bryant, Hari, Xavier, Damien and I went to the bleaches to loko for that guy. Haha turned to be Nicklaus, and it was 5v1. So fun...but yea. Then got another time Xavier and I were crawling up the bleaches...I shot Tim twice, which made him run away. Then we proned at the two bleaches. But yea, Weyshi and the rest spotted me, they started shooting and I started running. Haha but they didn't see Xavier there...so yea I managed to survive but Weyshi didn't. Haha oh well...so cool. Nice teamwork. Oh then another one, damn funny. Bryant, Uncle Chris, Xavier and I were camping outside the DNT studio...then Mr Lai popped out, haha and we started chasing him..but we all ran right into a trap..haha so sad then yea we were taken out. And another time, Xav and I were outside the DNt studio, closer to the carpark. We were waiting there, then we decided to move out and take another position, but then the minute Xav went out a torchlight flashed. haha we immediately went back in, and yea, guess who passed by..haha Choo! Then yea were like shooting at melee range..but Xav and I were taken out cause we accidentally shot ourselves...(too close to each other haha!) Hmm and i remember another one where the map was the whole of the 3rd and 4th storey, from primary all the way to secondary. Yea, pretty fun and big. Haha Xav and I managed to survive that one cause we were scouting...yea but those who were camping at the toilet (Damn funny! They were standing on the tabs! haha) didn't survive...but yea we took them out I think? Yea. Oh and Bryant was damn scary in his full camo uniform. Haha I remember Xav and I were walking into the admin block, then Xav told me "Ok, Matthew and I are gonna take the stairs up, you stay here and protect Bryant" then I was like, huh where's Bryant? Then he pointed to the grass patch...haha and even with that it took me a moment to notice something was there! Damn cool lar haha..yeps the rest I'm too tired to talk about it already.

Rawr, yep then yesterday had Geog class. KKp and I went to school together, so yea. Rawrr kinda tired to blog about it..well nothing much happened anyway, except for the morning assembly outside the MRT station, and like KKp tried taking a video of NEK's lesson..haha cool.

Yep, and today...CHEM SPA! Haha Titration didn't come out! Haha but at least QA didn't too...yea the experiment turned out to be quite easy...but I'm pretty worried cause I think I missed out some points..so yea. Oh well, then we had Tang's lesson.

Yep. Rawrr...I think I'll continue posting tonight...

As for now...I'll just go slack off and drown in my dreams.

(Don't think think sick =p)


Friday, March 07, 2008
8:17 AM

I'm just so tired